Tuesday, August 28, 2007

Stressed out because of not running

It's funny, but that's what I felt for the whole day. I did ran a few hundred of metres this morning, but because my stomach went beserk, I DNF. When you had to go, you just had to go. No amount of endurance will prevail in this case.

I usually run in the mornings, and not running, lands me in an uneasy feeling like I lost something. It's like a smoker who just need a puff periodically to get high. It's the same, I think, with all runners. You just had to run, because you know, you'll feel better at the end of it.

I can recall the last time I ran an ultra, I was on a "high" for a few days. I could still do work, albeit in a transitional state between fully concentrated, and drowsiness. My whole body hurts, but it feels good. It's weird, but pain just feels good.

As for running ultras, I just had one thought in my mind. If I could survive destroying my legs and body after that, I believe I would come up stronger for the next big distance. Somehow, not crossing that line, is something not easy to think of where to put it.

I am going to run 21km tonite...

2 comments:

Stupe said...

so am i bro. so am i.

Max said...

I understand your feeling....for me it's the same, when I cannot run I'm stressed and depressed, probably we are adrenaline and endorphine addicted but...that is...better than smoke....
Good luck with your 147km training...I hope to reach 100km within next 5 months !